hang up.

disappointment.
sorrow.
anger.
what did i expect?
why did i think this time would be different?

why did i hope you would come?
why did i let those hopes soar,
didn't i know you would flake?
why did i wish,
why did i think,
why did i believe something had changed
for the better.

i made chocolates for everyone,
peppermint bark.
the brown paper bag,
is empty now,
all except for your box.
i gave them away,
the named boxes,
and those of whom never came,
we ate.
all except for the chocolate in your box.

why did i keep it there,
why didn't i let us eat it,
why didn't i give yours away,
but someone else's?

why am i holding on to you?
why am i grasping for what we had,
what electrified us?
why will i not let it die?
why do i believe love can't die,
cause i know thats what it was,
for a part of it.
i know it, i felt it, you felt it.
we fell in it, our hands grasped.
i swear i was in love with you,
for even the smallest bit.

we were dreamers,
what are we now?

broken?

what are you afraid of?
why did you lie?
i see it, now
the falsity, right?
just to get me off.
us off.
yourself off?
why do you hate us so?
do you hate yourself too?
what drives you to kill it?
everything,
everything.


hello?, i know its you. but the scary thing is, i didn't recognize your voice.

changes, changes, changes.

did you recognize mine?

in that voice that you may or may not have recognized, i said some stupid stuff. what are you doing?

click..

click..

click..

why didn't you hang up?

i was waiting for that.

you wouldn't talk, but you wouldn't leave it either.

what was said there in that silence?

don't think about it, kenzie. you need to accept what he wants, right? you want this too, you better. right?
thats what i tell myself. don't keep believing in a lasting love among us. don't. why would you? how could you?