for jordan, who wanted a happy poem

the sun is shining, the sky is blue,
i feel so chipper, hey, don't you too?
i ate an apple, it was pretty and green,
i am so happy, i think i could scream.

i love you tomorrow, i love you today,
lets hug in the sunshine, oh hey hey hey.

the world is spinning, just how it does,
its amazing and fizzy, i think i'm in love.
no one can match this feeling of glee,
i'm just way too happy, oh tee hee hee hee.

i love you today, i love you tomorrow,
i don't like to steal, i just like to borrow.

lets pat all the bunnies in that soft fluffy way,
lets hold hands and snuggle, oh what a fun day!
i love to hold faeries, i love all cupcakes,
i wish i were never, no never this fake.

i love you tomorrow, i love you today,
i really am trying, and i mean what i say.

i promise to laugh, at least 12 times a day,
not just small fake ones, but real ones, oh yay!
i'm really not that sad, but so it may seem,
its just that i write when i'm down, so thats seen.

i love you today, i love you tomorrow,
i'm gonna cheer up, no more of this sorrow.

Scared?

I know you’re scared,
You’re scared of something too.
You don’t have to keep on
Looking me in the eye,
I can see it in you,
I’m not looking past you.

I know you’re scared,
But I’m not worried,
Cause we’re both still standing here.



I don’t know why I can’t
Look back at you strongly,
For a small time; its been a long time.
I don’t know why that smirk
Covering up you’re dark eyes
Scares me so badly.

Maybe I’m scared, scared that
Maybe I care about you, loveless.
Maybe I want to see, want you to see.

Maybe its you’re fear,
Or maybe its my fear of knowing
That you don’t know me,
And you’re not scared of me,
And you don’t care about me,
But you keep on staring.




You’re not worried, you don’t care about a thing.
We will see, we will see that you care,
When you care, when you see.




Why do I want to make you see,
See yourself, see me?

Do we know we're scared
And let it be, thinking the other is blind?

What do you see from the darkness?
How can I get inside?



I think I see now, my loveless,
Why you stay staring.
You want me,
Not just to want me,
But you want me to see,
And you want to see me.

crying

(look what i found! i believe i wrote it 8.24.07, but i can't be sure. but still, it made me excited. ehe.)

and again my mouth encircles the words,
but sound disappears in my throat.
again, i look into your eyes, and feel the tears pressured into my own,
but i won’t let them come.