but oh.

oh, i know its horrible
but i'm feeling it.
i feel
stringy
gangly
crunchy
gross.
but oh.
but oh.
wheres the harm?
this is missing.

i know its horrible.
but i'm feeling it.
i call it what i wanted.
all these
eleven,
twelve ages
to get through
to get through to you
past the elephant
that guards you.
guards me.

i know its horrible.
but i'm feeling it.
oh i beat it,
i won this round.
i had the victory.
i had the higher ground.
i stood above
i stood above you.
oh, i had you,
broke you,
tore you apart.

i know its horrible.
but i'm feeling it.
to have had you begging,
i didn't taste it till now
the words didn't connect with
what is me.
what is me.
honestly, i didn't know i mattered,
honestly, oh power.

i know its horrible.
but i'm feeling it.
i thought it would feel so much..
better than this,
better than this.
but now that chapter is gone,
and so is your touch.
as we have understood.
i must admit to some fear
in this one uncertainty.

i know it is horrible...
i am feeling it.