undeserving

I am humbled here.
I have fallen so short
And become so far gone
With weak and wispy morals
Transitory and translucent
Impure and imagined to be
Of a better person than I am.

I drag my sins
To the place you have given me
Beside you, inside you
A place that I fit in so well
But will never afford.
You love me with a mercy that
Transcends what I deserve.
Your forgiveness in the place of justice
Is more than I could come to justify.

I need to learn how to love you
Beyond what I can manage
For under my management of your heart
I wrecked you.
I wrecked you.
I wrecked my love and my only.
How could I do that
If I loved you?

I did I do I will love you,
By the empowerment of the one who can
Lead me to a place where I am delivered
Freed from the temptations that have
Made me shatter every precious thing I have had,
And that I will not let come and devastate this.
Lead you to a place where you can be loved
More than I can provide
And in a way that brings you calm and happiness
In your anguish and in your anger.
Lead us to a place where what we walk through
Will not stay with us or set us apart
And will turn this sadness into goodness.
Into gold.

I am humbled here,
I understand,
And this is my prayer,
That I can love you enough.