you and me

its all rather intoxicating,
you are blending now, forming with me
as i'm breathing into you.
and it is incredible
this way we are feeling
as we never have before.

i called it delirium,
disorientation, dizzying.
boiled and shadowed,
awake or asleep?
can you tell in the day?
can you tell in the night?

inches, feet, miles apart,
distances i can not make out,
incomprehensible measures.
lack of comfort, lack of patience.
pulling together, pulling apart.

and then we--
i disappear,
attempt to drill sense into my mind again.
i dislocate,
fight it, feel it, find it,
freedom--

and then we were one
and i felt it.
its been so long, love.
its been so greatly shredding and i was afraid,
but i am not afraid anymore.
you are here.

you are here and you did not take it back,
you did not leave me stranded,
standing, swaying and falling.
you caught me,
and kept me.

how could you know?
how can you be so lovable, loving?
so sensible in my pure, unutterable senselessness?

and you could not be more perfect for me now,
and we are molding together.
i am yours, you are mine, we are ours,
and these moments we are living together.

how can i say i love you?